So over the past two years I have realized a lot about relationships and how much work is truly needed for one. Throughout my relationship with my best friend and also boyfriend we have seen many great times but also some dark times, it has not been easy especially when you’re with someone that is so much alike such as yourself.
Before this time of being with him I have never realized how much I have been putting off the past pain that vie gone through, he has brought out the best in me but the pain that I have felt has brought me down as well. A lot of times I try to just be all that I can while putting effort into this love that we have it just gets to the point where am so scared to let him in that it causes us to argue because he wants me to feel comfortable talking to him but I have always been the type to just keep everything to myself, slowly I have been breaking down the walls that are forcing me to struggle.
Although throughout my time with him I have made my fair share of mistakes I have realize that there’s nothing worst then being dishonest so as a respect to him I have been honest about everything sometimes it may seem as if I’m nagging but it’s all a part of the emotions and fears many people face. He has expressed that he doesn’t exactly like me acting like I’m always worrying but sometimes you think the worst but hope for the best.
I grew up with people telling lies to me constantly so to feel like I’m being lied to comes naturally which often hurts so ever since I started to face my past head on I have been learning that not everything is going to be a fairytale which surprisingly does not bring my faith and hope down…having the strength to deal with the hurt I have felt all these years have ultimately come from my boyfriend being there when no one else has I have learned that there is never going to be perfect days but if you have someone there to help you accomplishing things can come easily. I love everyone in my life including him <3
"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."
— Marilyn Monroe
"Imperfection is beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring."
— Marilyn Monroe
"The real lover is the man who can thrill you by kissing your forehead or smiling into your eyes or just staring into space."
— Marilyn Monroe
"I've never fooled anyone. I've let people fool themselves. They didn't bother to find out who and what I was. Instead they would invent a character for me. I wouldn't argue with them. They were obviously loving somebody I wasn't."
— Marilyn Monroe
